In | Me and Mine Project #6

December 2016

Happy New Year! I hope you've all had wonderful festive periods! Sadly ours didn't get off to the best start with a variety of crippling illnesses striking the Clarke household for most of Decemeber - causing absolute havoc with Ivy's medication resulting in daily hospital visits for 2 weeks and almost all of our family festivities being cancelled. But somehow, all our Christmas wishes came true and we managed to get to our long-awaited Center Parcs break for the big day itself which is exactly what we all needed after the last few days, weeks and months we'd had (read about it here)

I know it's a cliche but how do these years just slip by quicker and quicker as you get older? and we're already at the start 2017?! It's both so easy and equally difficult to look back on the year we've had - I know lots of people seem to be disappointed in 2016 but despite all we've been through, it's personally been an absolute cracker. The first half being plagued with anxiety over the operation and the second half being the aftermath of the operation has infact been the recipe for the most exciting and most appreicative year of my life. We crammed in hundreds of memorable days out in the run up the hospital chaos in a bid to make the most of the time we had with Ivy being well and even managed to squeeze in some time without her too, something I had never had the confidence to do before. All of this set me up with the strength and courage to face whatever was to come.

Little did I know at the beginning of the year that those memories would feature the most incredible man I've ever met. I had no doubt I would make it through this year with the support of some of my closest friends and family (and, sadly, without some of them too) but Michael has been an absolute pillar of strength for me, someone who could drag me back into reality when it was starting to get too much and has treated Ivy completely as if she were his own, throughout all the best moments and the worst. Just incase we didn't think we had enough on our plates, we decided we'd like to throw a baby into the mix and I couldn't be happier to say that now at the end of the year, I am completely and besottedly in love with not one, but two men, the second of which has provided me with an essential amount of courage and hope at the time I've needed it the most and bless him, he's not even here yet.

I'm not desperate to see the back of  2016, but I couldn't be more excited for 2017. I am beginning the new year in my new home, with my very own family, hopefully with the worst of Ivy's heart interventions behind us now and under the most incredible group of hospitals behind us for whatever we do need. All I wanted was for Ivy to survive 2016 and I've managed to gain everything I have ever wanted in the process so the only goal I have for the coming year is to enjoy every single second of what I have been lucky enough to have, for as long as I am lucky enough to have it.

My heart is bursting at the seams, and I wish nothing but the same for all my friends, family and followers in the coming year x